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Happy New (Half) Year 2020!

I realised I did not post any New Year’s greeting in January.

I guess that’s fine considering it wasn’t a very “happy” year so far? Worldwide.

Some have even called for the year to be “reset” because there is a virus:

While a reset is not possible, I guess July can be considered a delayed “start” for the year 2020 – at least for us here in Malaysia and neighbouring countries who have none to little new COVID-19 cases daily. Let’s keep it that way! As for countries that are still registering 3 digit or more cases daily, I truly hope it will get better for you soon…

A week into the New Half Year, and I cannot contain how GRATEFUL I am that our Churches have begun to reopen on a parish by parish basis.

The parish I belong to reopened with a Carpark Sunset Mass last Saturday, 4 July:

Our first Car Park Sunset Mass. The rainbow appeared during communion session. Thanks to St Anthony’s Bintulu FIAT team…

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1st Carpark Sunset Mass @ St. Anthony’s Church, Bintulu

A Carpark Mass is where the parishioners remained in their parked cars and attended mass from within their vehicles. The Altar was set up at the entrance of the Church, facing the parking lot of cars. Only the priest and those on duty (lector, commentator, extraordinary ministers, sacristans and wardens) are not in vehicles.

The Church was reopened for Mass on Sunday, 5 July, with new Standard Operating Procedures (SOPs):

We have to queue first to “check-in” and get our temperature checked before we can enter the Church.

And then, the wardens will direct us where to sit – with spacing in between each parishioner indicated by a Saint on the left and right of us.

Love the idea of Mass with the Communion of the Saints! This first week, I was seated between St. Veronica & St. Fortunatus of Spoleto.

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Woah… We’re Half Way There!

Woah, livin’ on a prayer.

2020 is half way over as we enter the month of July.

If you feel like you’ve spent most of the year so far under lock down (full or partial), you are definitely not alone as almost everyone in the world was/is still going through it too…

No body could ever have thought that 2020 would be the year where we mostly “stayed home”. Condolences to those who had many great and wonderful plans for the first half of the year – no doubt, most of those had to be thrown out the window, or at the very least postponed to a date in the not-so-forseeable future at the moment.

“Do you feel different, since no travelling allowed?”, a friend of mine recently asked me.

I had to pause a while to reflect on that question:

Movement Control Order (MCO)

Phase 1: 18 March – 31 March *Lent
Phase 2: 1 April – 14 April *Holy Week
Phase 3: 15 April – 28 April *Easter
Phase 4: 29 April – 12 May *Birthday Under Partial Lockdown
Phase 5 (Conditional Phase): 13 May – 9 June *Gawai Raya Festivities under new normals
Phase 6 (Recovery Phase): 10 June – 31 August *No more Work From Home (WFH)

The Stages of the Movement Control Order and it’s personal *impact on me

I did find it difficult at the beginning, especially the first time it was extended, but within Phase 2 & 3, I did not even leave the house for a whole month (27 March – 29 April)! This was when I realised that after social distancing from people for so long, one could come to actually prefer one’s own company… I guess that was why at the end of Phase 4, being alone on my birthday this year didn’t feel too depressing, but it was really nice to actually have people around that day even if only briefly. I do wished I had a proper birthday cake on that day though, although I did make a simple muffin cake for myself…

Maybe that’s why I am having this huge interest in cake right now – be it baking/eating/selling it!
Cake Mix for sale! RM15 only. Just hit me up if you’re interested!

Phase 5 was like a re-introduction into society for me. While I was still working from home, most businesses were open and I had to, on occassion, leave the safety of home for errands. However, the only real social interaction I had since the MCO began happened during this Phase with the Gawai festivities. Of course, being still in the thick of it, there was no open housing or visiting allowed so I spent that Gawai weekend confined to the home of a “second family” of mine here. It was a much needed boost of social morale.

And we are now in Phase 6 – and we still have 2 more months to go. The feeling of “normalcy” has mostly returned since its back to the office to work after 3 months. The main difference is that now, most people wear masks and we have our temperatures checked everywhere we go. We also have to physically “check-in” into places (by leaving our name and contact number) manually or using Government-issued apps to allow for contact tracing, in the event it would be required.

So, to answer my friend’s question,

In general, yes, life feels different 2020 A.C. (After COVID19) but not in particularly because I cannot travel? Or maybe that’s just because I had already travelled to the Philippines in January, before the COVID-19 pandemic hit Malaysia and our neighbouring countries. While domestic travel within the country is now allowed, international borders are still closed and international travels restricted. It would be nice to be able to travel again internationally without restrictions, but I am in no rush to go anywhere at the moment.

Till my next post, remember to maintain social distance & avoid crowded places / confined spaces! Keep safe peoples ~~

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Day 80 RMO: Harvest Festival Projects

We are now already 5 days into June. Half the year is almost gone and it really feels like most of it is spent on this on-going fight against COVD-19 by social-distancing and staying home…

Yes, the past 80 days (since March 18) has been a challenge and life has changed and new normals are being embraced, slowly but surely, but at this juncture, I wish to focus on the highlights since my last post.

Being physically distant from others and not being able to gather together in big groups for the things we used to be able to do like prayer/worship and choir, it helps that we can still come together to worship and sing together in new ways:

Kemenangan Terjadi Di Sini – Cover (Version 1) by FIAT Bintulu

This was FIAT Bintulu’s second Worship video project (the first was mentioned in a previous post) with a cover of the song titled “Kemenangan Terjadi Di Sini” (Victory Happens Here). The Choir Version and Lyrics with English translation are at end of this post.

A special Virtual Choir Project was also organised to coincide with the annual Harvest Festival that happen in Borneo during this time. Kaamatan takes place in Sabah on 30 & 31 May and Gawai takes place on 1 & 2 June in Sarawak. Normally, the local church would have special masses for the community, but this year, it was not possible. However, it was truly a blessing to join this project and lend our voices to glorify Him all the same:

This Kaamatan Gawai Medley was sung by 84 combined choir members from several parishes in Sabah & Sarawak doing a medley of “Apai Peda Kami Ditu”, a song in Iban, and “Ounsikou Ginawoku”, a song in Dusun. (Lyrics and English translations below.)

 Kaamatan Gawai Medley


1. Apai peda kami ditu (Father look at us here)

Deka muji nyembah Nuan (Praising and worshipping You)

Laban ti gaga samoa leman (Because you have created everything)

Nuan pengaga O Tuhan, O Tuhan (You are Creator O Lord, O Lord)

O Dinga ka kami, O Tuhan (O listen to us, O Lord)

2. Kami ukai datai ngapa (We do not simply come)

Ukai muji nyembah aja (Not just praising and worshipping)

Tang ka madah ati gaga (But proclaiming our joyful hearts)

Madah pengaga O Tuhan, O Tuhan, (Proclaiming joy O Lord, O Lord)

O Dinga ka kami, O Tuhan (O listen to us, O Lord)

3. Kami ditu balat richah (We here are excited)

Jari kaki ati nyembah (Hands, feet, hearts worshipping)

Malas budi Nuan manah (Reciprocating your goodness)

Malas pemanah O Tuhan, O Tuhan (Responding to your goodness O Lord, O Lord)

O Dinga ka kami, O Tuhan (O listen to us, O Lord)

4. Kabuah kami patut pia (Why we should do so)

Laban nuan udah nempa (Because You have formed)

Utai ka guna nyawa mensia (Everything for our lives)

Utai ka guna O Tuhan, O Tuhan (Everything for us O Lord, O Lord)

O Dinga ka kami , O Tuhan (O listen to us, O Lord)

5. Nuan Tuhan udu kuasa (You Lord are most powerful)

Tau ngampun samoa dosa (Can forgive all sins)

Dalam pikir, jako kerja (In thoughts, words, actions)

Kasih ka kami O Tuhan, O Tuhan (Have mercy on us O Lord, O Lord)

O Dinga ka kami, O Tuhan (O listen to us, O Lord)



Verse 1:

Ounsikou ginawoku (My heart rejoices)

Kumaa Diya Tuhan (to you O Lord)

Ngawi kosiananNu kumaa dahai (for your love for us)

Poinsorouku kasari (I will always remember)

Verse 2:

Royohon ku ngaranNu (I praise your name)

Sontob suang ginawoku (with all my heart)

Iya no I olidang (only You are Holy)

Pahatakonku iti koposionku (I surrender all my life)

Chorus 1:

Yesus no ralan (Jesus is the way) om katapatan (and the truth)

Yesus no ralan om koposion (Jesus is the way and the life)

Yesus no gampamasi (Jesus is life)

Ngawi tulun toinsanan (for everyone)

Hiti’d suang pomogunan (in this world)

Chorus 2:

Royo-royohonku (I worship) ngaran Nu Tuhan (Your name Lord)

Soro-sorohonku i kosiananNu (I remember your mercy)

Nokotungag Ko Yesus (Jesus you have risen)

Mantad id kapataion (from the dead)

Minamasi Ko dahai (giving us life)

Kotobian Tadau Tagazo Do Kaamatan & Selamat Ari Gawai to all Sabahans and Sarawakians!

And as promised…

Kemenangan Terjadi Di Sini – Choir Version by FIAT Bintulu


Kumenyembah dalam kudus hadiratMu (I worship in your holy presence)

Hampiri tahta kasih karuniaMu Bapa (Approaching the throne of your grace Father)

Kekuatanku hanya dalam HadiratMu (My strength is only in your presence)

Yesusku hanya Kaulah segalanya (My Jesus only you are everything)


Kuyakin Kau hadir disini (I believe that you are present here)

Kurasakan Kuasa yang tak terbatas (I can sense your unlimited power)

Kuyakin Kau nyata di sini (I believe that you are really here)

Kemenangan terjadi di sini (Victory happens here)


Segnap Jiwaku memujiMu (I praise you with all my soul)

Sungguh besar Kau Yesusku (How great are you my Jesus)

Segnap Hatiku menyembahMu (I praise you with all my heart)

Kau Besar Kau Besar (You are great You are great)

Kau Besar Kau Besar (You are great You are great)

Kuyakin Kau hadir disini (I believe that you are present here)

Kurasakan Kuasa yang tak terbatas (I can sense your unlimited power)

Kuyakin Kau nyata di sini (I believe that you are really here)

*Kemenangan terjadi di sini (*Victory happens here)

*Kesembuhan, Kelepasan (*Healing, Freedom)

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A Birthday Under Partial Lockdown

Today was certainly a birthday unlike any other I ever had.

All dressed up and no where to go!

Waking up and still under Restricted Movement Order (RMO), to differentiate today from the previous 55 days of RMO, I put on a dress – instead of the usual T-shirt and shorts (which has been my work-from-home (WFH) outfit all this while. Don’t judge now. LOL!)

During morning prayer upon waking, I was moved to sing thanksgiving and give praise to God for another year of life. Thus, this came to be created:

This was the first time I ever made a cover song by myself (choir/collaborations I’ve done a few). I know my voice is not perfect, but praise and worship had always been something I am passionate about. And today in particular, celebrating the gift of life in self-isolation away from family and friends, this is a song that really expressed how I felt. (If you’re not farmiliar with the lyrics, you can see it at the end of this post.)

And God continued to show me His love through family (especially my youngest brother who kept calling me all day “to keep me company on my birthday” he said – Aaaaww isn’t he the sweetest!) and friends who wished me well on social media and messages and a particular couple who out-of-the-blue decided to pop by the house:

When I thought there would be no one to sing me “Happy Birthday” in person this year, they showed up!

When they arrived, they noticed I had a flat tyre (it was fine the last time I went out last week) so they offered to change my tyre too! Thanks lots guys. Indeed, you guys brightened my day.

It’s not a birthday without cake! Well, not for me at least as I had always had one for my birthday, even if it was just a slice. And so this year, I certainly would have my own cake and eat it too!

Milo Muffin Cake & Vanilla Icecream

And so, as the calender soon changes to a new day and my birthday would have passed, it was certainly one I would never forget!

Thank You Lord – Don Moen

I come before You today
And there’s just one thing that I want to say
Thank You Lord
Thank You Lord

For all You’ve given to me
For all the blessings that I cannot see
Thank You Lord
Thank You Lord

With a greatful heart
With a song of praise
With an outstreched arm
I will bless Your name

Thank You Lord
I just wanna thank You Lord
Thank You Lord
I just wanna thank You Lord
Thank You Lord

For all You’ve done in my life
You took my darkness and gave me Your light
Thank You Lord
Thank You Lord

You took my sin and my shame
You took my sickness and healed all my pain
Thank You Lord
Thank You Lord

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Day 49 RMO: 5 ways life has changed in the last month

5 days into May and 49 days since the Restricted Movement Order (RMO) began on 18 March. Last week, 29 April, was the first time I left the house after more than a month (since 27 March) because of work responsibilities.

What’s changed in the last month? Here’s a glaring few:

1 Roadblocks

Queue because of a roadblock that is still a long distance away…

The RMO is now in Phase 4 (29 April to 12 May), which sees more stringent movement controls at each phase since Phase 1 (18 March – 31 March), Phase 2 (1 April to 14 April) and Phase 3 (15 April to 28 April). In Phase 1 and 2, there wasn’t any roadblocks around my usual travel route to work or to get groceries but that changed as Phase 3 brought more roadblock stations, thus when I went out last week, I had to queue for almost an hour at one of them.

2 Queues

Queueing at roadblocks is one thing. And then there is queueing to go inside banks/ supermarkets / you-name-it. The queue is because of the limit of the number of people who can be inside a particular space at any particular time. There are also limited number of hours certain banks / shops are open, thus people queue to utilise their services / buy their products when they are open.

3 Lines on the floor

When there are queues, there are lines of the floor 1 metre/6 feet apart. This is to guide people to queue at a safe social distance away from each other. So you can expect to find these lines at entrances, payment counters, service counters etc. When I see these lines, I tend to question whether they are really necessary. I mean, suuurely by now, people know they should keep a safe distance away from others right? Well, apparently, SOME people really do need these lines as guides – the person in queue behind me before the lines began was standing less than the required distance away. *facepalm* Next time I go out and stand in queues, I may just bring an umbrella and hold it horizontally tucked under my arm pointing backwards – so people don’t come any closer than the safe umbrella distance apart at least.

4 Masks and Hand Sanitisers

This really happened to me, no joke!

Nowadays, it is essential to leave the house with Masks and Hand Sanitisers with you. Some places will not even let you in if you do not use a mask. Hand sanitisers are also provided for customers’ use in banks / shops, although for peace of mind, it’s best to have your own. And use it generously.

Covering your nose and mouth using mask is a necessary precaution to reduce the possibility of getting or spreading (unknowingly as some people have it but are asymptomatic i.e. do not have the symptoms) of COVID-19. But covering yourself from head to toe in full-body costumes as if it were a Hazmat suit however, that is just vanity. Sometimes I wonder if they even work. It would depend, I guess, on what material is covering your nose and mouth and/if microorganisms like the COVID-19 virus can pass through them or not. Simply vanity.

5 Germaphobia

Germaphobia (sometimes spelt germophobia) is a term used by psychologists to describe a pathological fear of germs, bacteria, microbes, contamination and infection. (Definition from here.)

With the constant reminders and importance given lately to hand-washing, covering your nose and mouth when sneezing/coughing and general cleanliness, it is no wonder that people have somewhat become germaphobes albeit at a milder stage. I know I have!

Immediately hitting the showers after coming back home from “the outside world” and washing the clothes that you had just worn (even if it was only worn for an hour outside). Letting stuff from outside (like the groceries you just bought) be exposed to the sun for a bit as a way of “sterilizing” it, or if that is not possible, wiping them down with soap and water (and I have heard some use sanitisers or even bleach). Letting your car sit out in the hot sun to kill any germs that may be in/on it. These type of things.

Famous germaphobe fictional TV characters that immediately come to mind are Adrian Monk of “Monk” and Sheldon Cooper of “The Big Bang Theory”.

Adrian Monk
Sheldon Cooper

It’s funny how their germaphobic tendencies and actions (among others) was part of why these characters came off as hilarious. But now, it seems they were right (to some extent) all along eh? Not so funny when you realise you are becoming a germaphobe (even if only slightly) yourself huh?